I've been thinking about the same quote since I watched the Long Island medium last night. And I guess it's stuck in my head because of how well I thought it fits what I'm feeling.
'I just feel like the walls are closing in on me...... And there's nothing I can do.'
Sometimes I wished he didn't survived the resuscitation. Other times, I just wanna pack my bags and go because the sight of seeing you on your phone and not trying hard enough around the house just makes me wanna stay further away from you.
Why? Because I've tried talking about it for so many times I no longer wanna try anymore. You have made me feel that no matter how many times I try things will only get better for that three seconds and it will go back to square one.
And it's doesn't just apply to that phone game, there are other things too and you know it and you know what I'm referring to.
I just wanna try and live my own life right now, and the more I think about it the more I wanna stay away and be independent and solo. Everybody is tired, I don't wanna be forcing too much anymore coz it's pointless and ineffective.
I also no longer wanna talk about the situation with anybody because nobody will understand. They don't know the feeling of having a normal son given to you and something happened to what it is today. I don't fucking need sympathy..., I need a normal life and unless you can give me that, please go away and stay away.
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